10 years ago i heard about a game called undertale. i only saw bits and pieces of it from videos and fanart online but it immediately sparked my interest and i thought it looked so cool!

But i was too scared to play it. I wasn't scared of anything in the game itself but i was scared i would get caught playing it. Because it was against the rules, not rules from strict parents but from my sister. or as i knew her back then, my bully. Everything i liked or showed the slightest bit of interest in was bad or "cringe". so i stopped. i stopped enjoying anything that wasn't approved of by my sister and undertale was one of those things.

and so I didnt actually get to play undertale until around 2020. when i finally was able to let myself play it I felt sad that I didn't get to experience it earlier because i knew that if i had played it in 2015 it would have meant so much to me.
It would have been the first time i had seen a non-binary character and the first time i woud have seen any queer/neurodivergent characters in general portrayed in a positive light rather than being a joke, which would have been amazing for me back then as a sad and confused queer and autistic kid. it would have changed my life back then.

But now when i look back on it, undertale did actually change my life, just a little later than i had hoped it would. Playing it was the first step i took in being myself again, in not being ashamed of my myself and my interests. It was scary but since then i have taken lots of small but impactful steps to being myself and living free of fear of judgement.

its funny, playing the game i was so scared to play actually ended up being one of the best decisions i ever made. I might not be who i am today if it weren't for undertale, so happy 10th anniversary undertale and thank you for helping me be me! :)

Also fuck cringe culture <3

A couple weeks ago my sister and i were talking about growing up with animal crossing and the fond memories we had of playing it together. We decided to take a look at her old wild world town as she still has her original dsi and save file, i was under the impression that i had lost my original game card when we moved a while ago but, when we were looking in her bedside table drawer there was a second wild world game card which turned out to be mine! i have no idea how it got there but there it was! we both looked around our towns for a while and shared our memories of playing together as kids and it was a nice time :)

i took some photos of my town that i wanna share here :)

My characters! My main character is kapp'n they're called that because my sister told me it would give me the pretty face when I started the game. She really just wanted me to have an ugly name because she was still jealous of me lmao XD
The rest of the characters are named after monster high dolls i think lol

And heres my house!

This was where i kept my bells because i didn't know how to access my bank account because i couldn't read lol. Can you tell how young i was when i was playing this now? XD

Also i think the wall was supposed to be an ireland flag but it looks more like india lmaoo

And this was my shop where i would sell random shite to my sister and her friend XD

After that my game just sat in my room for a while until yesterday, when i saw a youtube video of someone who was walking around their wild world town which they had maintained for like 15 years or something! i was inspired! So decided i wanted to return to my town and take care of it once again! but...

after probably around 14 years of neglect the town was in pretty rough shape (❛—❛;)
so it looks like i have my work cut out for me lol.
i might do an update on the town after i spruce it up a bit. but thats all for now. bye bye! :)